.

I hate that I know I'm a good person. I hate that my feeling of self worth disappears when I see those numbers.

Just leave me alone.

Trying to Not Cry Over Spilt Milk.

From the backstabbing co-worker to the meddling
sister-in-law, you are in charge of how you react
to the people and events in your life. You can
either give negativity power over your life or you
can choose happiness instead. Take control and
choose to focus on what is important in your life.
Those who cannot live fully often become
destroyers of life.

- Anais Nin

American author (1903-1977)

This past week or so, I've learned a lot about people.

What it takes to be a bigger person, who's really there for you. College gives a harsh dose of reality to a lot of aspects in a young person's life. But the one I think that is the most valuable isn't taught in a classroom.

It's about people.

If they know who they are and how willing they are to let others influence their way of thinking.

About a year ago, I had this crazy idea that people could think for themselves and that things like the media or the "Sullivan's Nod" couldn't really affect someone. That it was just an illusion.

But it's real.

People really do suck and do let the smarter ones mold their way of thinking.

Now, I wouldn't say they're conforming to society, no. BUT, I would say that their judgement becomes clouded and then they're given a half paved road to walk down and make decisions then based on the new guidelines they've been given.

At around the same time last year, someone I knew said something along the lines of the people he'd met here at school he didn't consider his real friends.

At the time I didn't understand what he'd meant. He'd known a group of people for about a year, had hung out with and gone to shows with. Created some kind of relationship with these people.

I thought he was mean for saying something like that. I know I would of been offended to not be considered a real friend to someone I'm opening myself up to.

Little did I know that this person was keeping everyone a safe distance away. After all, you can't get hurt if you don't get close to people, right? Right.

But it's a shitty way of living your life.

Recently, I have experienced negative comments thrown my way by people who hardly know me. The people whom I thought were my friends from last year easily showed how I could be ostracized. Pushing my best friend along with me, when she didn't even do anything to deserve that treatment, but associate herself with me.

I can't conclude anything about certain people at this time, but I'm learning. Extremely fast.

And I know that I won't be keeping people at an arm's distance away from me, but the second you show me that you'll hurt me as easily as someone you didn't like in High School, then I'll graciously step away from being associated with you.

I thankfully have a wonderful best friend here, a mother, a few best friends from home (one's in California), and a wonderful boyfriend who support me. From my mistakes to my achievements... they're there. If you don't want to be, you don't have to be.

If you don't deserve to be, you won't either.

But if you are, I'll be there for you as much as I humanly can.

Last for FUN!damentals

Last post for the class, the last one that counts for any type of grade.

I wish more classes would assign us something as simple as keeping a blog like this, nothing too difficult. Talking about whatever you want (to an extent) and just rambling about whatever topic you favor most.

Now, I really don't think RayWilliamJohnson's new video is that funny...at all.
He just talks about some "Crack Ho" who gives weird, honest advice to people.
So I'm going to post one of his older videos.



The tubing looked like fun, not gonna lie.....until things went wrong at least.

OH! And I'm pretty excited for New Moon to come out in November, so here's a trailer for that as well.

Oh Journey....

How you still haunt me.

My mom LOVED Journey, I grew up listening to it...I probably know all of the popular songs by heart.
And now we're playing Don't Stop Believin' for Marching Band.... :/
My roommate Ashley and I are listening to the song right now to get it out of our systems.
If you aren't familiar with the greats such as Journey, here you go!



Ugh. Not that I dislike Journey, I'm a fan, but really, Joe?..Really?
Pure entertainment, folks...pure entertainment.
Do your parents have a weird quirk about them that just makes you shake your head?
Oh my parents do....they play WoW. With my little brother. It's a family affair that I'm not a part of. And I'm okay with that.


I found this video a whie back, just mocking DND (what WoW is based off of).
It still makes me laugh.
If you know how DND (Dungeons and Dragons) works, you'll get a kick out of it too.



I'm trying to mix up the videos this time, but tomorrow I'll post some more RayWilliamJohnson. :)

**Tug of War TONIGHT!!! LU Pride Olympics!!! Same sex mudwrestling to follow after!! Starts at 7 pm at Hunter Stadium!! Come check it out!**

Something Fun.

I was getting a lot of positive responses and feedback from people who've been commenting on my blog about RayWilliamJohnson, so I figured I would give you guys another Ray video and some more fun things.



I know, the puppy was the cutest damn thing ever!!!!

So I'm going to play off Ray's questions for the forum. Except mine's more simple.
If you could own any dog, what kind of dog would it be?

And of course, you can't watch youtube without watching music videos.

This is from ISetMyFriendsOnFire.
Probably the best music video ever.



AND THEN! I've got one more to show you guys today, my friend Veronica first introduced me to this guy's work and this is probably my favorite video he has.



Let me know which video you guys enjoyed best!

**Reminder! Next Week is Greek Olympics!! If you are interested in forming teams, make sure you get ahold of Dan Bedell or Ashley Stewart and figure out how to get your teams set up! Events will be all week and if you can't compete, come out and support everyone who will be!** (That means me) :)

My YouTube Addiction

So, since people are actually going to be reading this blog now, I figured instead of giving you an insight to my personal life right now, I'd do some fun posts for everyone.

I'm a big fan of YouTube as of lately. There is a channel called Equals Three, the man that posts on here is named Ray William Johnson.
If you followed his posts from beginning to end, you'll see that they start off as more political vlogs (video blogs).

He explains further into his show that when he went in for interviews for prospective jobs, and every possible employer noted that hiring him would be dangerous because of his opinionated channel on YouTube.
So he changed it. To a more comedic vlog regarding videos that go viral and conversations between him and the forum (followers of the channel).

Here's one of his posts:



Now, that's "pure entertainment" in the words of Joe Alsobrook.

Okay, so what do you guys think?
What's one of your favorite YouTube channels or just videos in general?

**As a side note: LU students should really try to make it to this football game on Saturday! Game starts at 6. Drumline is going to be doing some fun stuff!
AND!!! There's a surprise at the end of the halftime show.
I can't tell you what. But it's worth going to!**

My School Stuff

So, this blog, for a week, will be dedicated to my Fundamentals of the Internet class. Apparently, Erica wants us to be familiar with blogs and make one.

I'm already one step ahead I guess!

Moving back into school has been one of the best things ever. It's been a total blast moving in with Ashley and Alysha. Even Vinetta is super awesome! I'm glad we lucked out with cool roommates.

This past weekend was the last weekend for Faire...I'm kind of upset about that. I'm really glad that I was able to make it up for the three day weekend though. Roni, Rosie, and I rocked out working there and I'm going to miss those girls like hell during the school year.




Yay for a new year and good times :)