I Need Something New

Something new to inspire me...

A good book or a new movie that just makes me feel good. I've watched The 10th Kingdom three times in the past two weeks (& it's an 8 hour long movie).

Don't get me wrong, that stuff makes me feel good. But I need a new fairy tale.

Give me something new. Anything.

I don't know what it is I need right now to make me feel whole. Probably to just be back at home for a little while, but since I can't have that there has to be something new.

I think I need some just "me" time tonight. Go to Wal-Mart, get a frozen dinner, maybe find that new book or movie I seem to be craving in my life right now. And then clean some of my room before break starts on Friday.

--I know I'm growing up and it scares me to death to be quite honest. I know I can't stop it from happening, but I feel like these fairy tales and far away places keep me young. For a little while at least.
As I get older, the more I feel like I've taken people in my life for granted. My grandparents especially.
I wish I would've asked my Nana when I was little to teach me how to speak Greek. I wish I could today. Or even ask her about where she's from and her family. I blame part of this to my father, I know it sounds terrible, but I feel like he was never really family oriented.
I wish I could tell my Grandma 'thank you' for reading me and my brother and sister bedtime stories, for letting me and my sister stay up with her, watching Beauty and the Beast while drinking tea (with lots of honey in it), for showing me through stories and paintings that life is a beautiful place. And for teaching me how to grow cucumbers the right way every summer.

...there are so many memories I'll never forget.

And I guess I just think that I've been too grown up this past few weeks with school. There's a time to be grown up, and there's a time to be a kid.
So I think I'm going to go now and get that little something I've been needing these past few days.