Spring break was pretty good. I got to see people, Ashley in particular. She came back from California. I hope she doesn't go back out there, I'm pretty sure she realizes that she's happier being at home, even if her boyfriend isn't here.
But, for some weird reason, I was slightly excited to come back to school. I think a big part of it was knowing I have projects and a lot of things to get done here still. I'm productive here, and it's hard to focus again after a week of just hanging out. At home, non-the-less.
Not to mention when I was home there was a bit of drama at the end of it. Sometimes I feel like such a bad person. I know I'm not, though. Mom says I still try to make too many people happy. I don't know.
Things at school didn't change when I came back from Spring Break. Which was nice. I hope I get into APO.
There was a conversation though, at the dinner table; two girls I didn't know, but the boys did were at the table also. During their conversation, I had an immediate flashback to High School. Like I was sitting there and the girls I had wanted to get away from, were staring right at me.
I'm aware that I don't really know these girls, so they're probably really nice. I just didn't care to hear about the drunken escapades.
There was a conversation though, at the dinner table; two girls I didn't know, but the boys did were at the table also. During their conversation, I had an immediate flashback to High School. Like I was sitting there and the girls I had wanted to get away from, were staring right at me.
I'm aware that I don't really know these girls, so they're probably really nice. I just didn't care to hear about the drunken escapades.
My childhood never consisted of an alocoholic father or family member beating me. I've never lost a loved one from alcoholism. And I'm not opposed to having a good time with a few drinks. At all. That's why I'm so weirded out by the way I was listening to them yesterday. I had disapproving thoughts to these girls that were of the legal age to drink, like I was thinking that they were 13 and not 21.
Maybe I'm just really strange.
Maybe I'm just really strange.
Right now, I'm just wishing for it to be summer. July to be exact. Be at home. With my best friend, boyfriend, and family. Getting a new job and enjoying one of my true loves: Ren Faire.
People probably get sick of me talking about it, but it's a really big part of my life. Which is weird because I'm only there 3 out of 12 months of the year on weekends.
I just want to feel at ease. I'm happy, I just want less pressures right now.
People probably get sick of me talking about it, but it's a really big part of my life. Which is weird because I'm only there 3 out of 12 months of the year on weekends.
I just want to feel at ease. I'm happy, I just want less pressures right now.
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