I feel like I've been running away from things lately. I'm starting to realize that I have changed so much as a person since I've been at college.
Maybe not changed-changed. Maybe I'm just starting to actually get to know myself more.
And the realization that I didn't know myself as well as I thought in the beginning...scares me.
I am proud of myself though, for doing what I did a few weeks ago.
...ending it.
The Old Kim wouldn't of had the courage to do it.
Here's to hoping I stay strong.
By the way, the picture of the nymph on the side works at Bristol, she's gorgeous and I wish I could wear that costume.
That's the nerd in me. But don't tell me she doesn't look amazing.
Ther are so many exciting things happening this upcoming year, I don't want to spoil it by becoming attached to anybody.
Does that sound bad?
I don't know, I want to be happy with someone BUT!, not if it's like all the last times. Someone told me that I have to keep putting myself out there in order to find it.
Nope.
I'm going to let it find me this time. I want to be the pursued this time instead of the pursuer.
(Is that even a real word?...Pursuer?)
For a few years, I randomly visit GroupHug.us, a website I kind of accidentally found when I was feeling a little sad.
Right now I feel like this person:
Granted, my exams aren't over for the week, but I really am going to miss being at LU for the summer.
I feel like I have to rebuild my relationships at home again.
Which is weird, I feel like it's all my fault. But communication is a two way street.
Leaving with funny words.
(405): I got everything I ever gave her back, every picture, and money for the dog. I didn't want it she brought it all back and gave it to me. clothes jackets, pictures, dried flowers, ear rings, necklace...
(1-405): Sell it on ebay and let's go to the bar
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