Thank God for Friends

I'm really at that point right now, to where I don't know what I would've done without them this past week.

Tough love has a whole new meaning to me and I couldn't be more grateful to them.

Please don't ever give up on me, guys.

I love you all way too much.


For the record, I lost. Or more or less just threw my hands up in the air, smiling....
...because it hit me. All on my own, like a ton of bricks smacking me in the face (and it didn't even hurt!), it dawned on me that I don't want this.

There was nothing mysterious about you or eye catching. I was just trying to help what I thought was a lost soul...but we're so different.
You live in the present and I live with the future always in mind.

"I'm focusing on what's going on right now," you say.

Well that's fine, everyone should...but if you don't have a plan for the future, then you're just swimming in the current time, which becomes the past before you even know it.

That's fine that you don't have a plan, that just means you're not really what I'm looking for.
...How could I want someone who doesn't even believe in God (or at least a divine being that's greater than us)?

And I'm okay. And life is great. And I am more proud of myself than I ever have before because when everyone thought I was almost hopeless, I saved myself.

And sometimes saving yourself is the only way to be saved.