And sometimes losing is okay.
But it makes me want to cry. Just cry and cry until my body doesn't know what it's like to stop the tears coming from my eyes.
...So in this case it sucks when your body won't muster up the tears.
They're there and they want to fall!! Damnit, body, just let me cry my heart out!!
Why won't my body recognize crying? I need to, it's been a while since I've just balled my eyes out.
This is insane though.
I just want to SCREAM!!! Scream so many things.
Nobody from school can understand what's going on because they're not here...and right now I really wish I had: 1. Ashley's presence, 2. James's strong gripped hug, 3. APO family to make me smile.
I always want what I can't have.
Doesn't everyone?
Just pack my car, give me my schedules, and send me on my merry way.
I really feel hopeless. Maybe I am right now.
One thing's for sure: if this is how I feel being here for summer, I won't be coming back a lot anymore.
Promise.
And you'll have no one to blame.
If you have the answers to life, I'd sure like a sneak peak in.
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i wish i were there :(
ReplyDeleteand we will have a major cry session when school starts if we need to. i will break out "Little Women" which without a doubt, every single time makes me cry. or we'll find something. we'll get some chocolate and ice cream and build our fort and it'll be AWESOME!
i miss you honey! :(